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So sorry, guys.
05.17.04 (1:55 pm)   [edit]


My apologies, friends, but I am leaving.

As of late, tBLOG has been very difficult to use. I don't know if it's the site, my internet connection, my browser, etc., but I can't stay here if I am unable to post for days on end.

If you're really that devoted of a reader, you can click on the link at the end of this post to find my new weblog.

Again, my apologies. It's been great, but I can't stand it any more. My love to all and best wishes.

My new blog
 
Why I'm not in NHS.
05.16.04 (6:32 pm)   [edit]


No, I'm not bitter. In all honesty, I should be in NHS. But since the GPA they base acceptance on is cumulative, I'm screwed. My cumulative GPA is barely a 3.0, thanks to my undiagnosed learning disability. Yeah. I barely passed 10th grade.

But everything's okay now, so I should be able to get into college and lead a successful, educated life.

But I digress. The real point of this blog is to explain why I would not enjoy being a member of NHS.

Firstly, I don't like to pick up trash. Sorry. Not my thing.

Secondly, I have other committments, and the whole "come to the meetings or die" thing is way too strict for me.

Thirdly, in my house, NHS stands for Nut Hugger Syndrome. You know those really short shorts that old guys wear when they go jogging? Yeah, that's my definition of NHS. I really don't want to be the member of a cult society that has the same initials as something that I consider less-than-desireable.

So there you go. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.
 
Los pino son rectos.
05.16.04 (5:54 pm)   [edit]

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A little song, a little dance, a little seltzer down your pants.


Yes, my friends, the pine trees are straight. Just thought I'd emphasize that point. Hehe. Get it? Point? Okay, I'm done.

Yeah. My life. Um, well, where to start?

I'll start at the beginning of last week.

Well, I made it. Even though I thought it wasn't possible, I actually lived through closing night of Les Miserables. God, was it depressing. I had this strange, empty feeling inside. It was the same feeling that you get when you read the very last word of the best book ever. Like something that has consumed your life for God knows how long is over, and all that you have left is a massive, gaping hole.
And that's exactly it. There's nothing more that I can say to describe how I'm feeling about ending this experience. But it was great, and I had tons of fun. If anyone from the cast is reading this, I'll have you know that you are the coolest bunch of people that I've ever met. I love you so much.

Nothing that exciting happened last week in school, or at least nothing that I can remember. Or anything worth remembering, for that matter. So yeah. I'll end this blog on a rather, um, vague note. I seem to be doing that a lot lately. Hm.
 
BOLD what is TRUE about yourself.
05.06.04 (12:50 pm)   [edit]


stolen from Wz

01. When I was younger I made some bad decisions.
02. I don't watch much TV these days.
03. I love psychodelic mushrooms.
04. I love sleeping.
05. I have loads of books.
06. I once slept in a toilet.
07. I love playing video games.
08. I adore marijuana.
09. I watch porn movies.
10. I watch them with my father.
11. I like sharks.
12. I love spiders.
13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair.
14. I like George Bush.
15. People are cool.
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
17. I have jacuzzi and a Porsche.
18. I have a lot to learn.
19. I carry my knife everywhere with myself.
20. I'm really really smart.
21. I've never broken someone's bones.
22. I have a secret.
23. I hate snow. [I'm living in the wrong state]
24. I drink only milk.
25. Punk rock rules.
26. I hate Bill Gates
27. I love Chinese food.
28. I would hate to be famous.
29. I am not a morning person.
30. I wear glasses.
31. I don't need glasses.
32. I have potential.
33. I'm pure Japanese.
34. My legs are two different sizes.
35. I have a twin.
36. I wear a padded bra.
37. I can ramble on about absolutely nothing.
38. I'm left-handed.
39. I hate llamas, but I'm one of them.
40. I don't like horror movies.
41. I suck at climbing, but I love it anyway.
42. People hate me usually.
43. I love pop music.
44. I hardly ever go to bed before midnight.
45. I hate parking fines.
46. I know the National Anthem of my country by heart.
47. I know more than two languages.
48. I spend too much time on my computer.
49. I often want to throw the computer out a window.
50. I live on a ground floor.
51. I don't like chocolate.
52. I'd like to be more original.
53. I've lied.
54. Cocks are my favorite birds.
55. I want to conquer the world. Muahaha!
56. I wonder what happens when you die.
57. I've read all books about Harry Potter.
58. Eat your dog!
59. I love to exercise.
60. I hate chemistry with a passion.
61. I love to write.
62. I like changes.
63. I hate going to class.
64. I am afraid to die.
65. I hate dish washing.
66. My hair is long, brown, and incredibly curly.
67. My nails are nine inches long.
68. My favorite color is black.
69. I like to sleep on the floor.
70. I am hopeless at cooking.
71. I sucked my thumb when I was little.
72. I should be doing something else rather than writing this.
73. I am online a lot, but not on MSN.
74. I hate government.
75. I don't have a boyfriend.
76. I'm too nice for my own good.
77. I love to read, I read as much as I can.
78. I don't trust newspapers.
79. I like debating.
80. I live in a lagoon.
81. I clean my room once a month.
82. I'm scared of american fast food.
83. I am prying open my third eye.
84. I love Mozambique.
85. I don't trust any religion.
86. I used to play with barbies because all the other girls were doing it.
87. I wanted to be a super hero when I was little.
88. I like listening to wind chimes.
89. I'm very disorganized.
90. My hair is long and straight.
91. I earn a lot.
92. I don't like spicy food.
93. I keep a diary.
94. I can't do cartwheels.
95. I am very lazy.
96. I'm sarcastic.
97. I think my hair is annoying.
98. I'm very sensitive.
99. I love being "ab-normal".
100. My left eye is violet and my right eye is a light blue. Well, sort of. :P
 
Guess who's back...
04.27.04 (8:04 pm)   [edit]

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Yes, that's right, it's ME!
And boy, does it feel good!

Okay, so I've been super mondo busy these past weeks, so blogging and the internet and such just haven't fit into the schedule.

Not to mention that fact that my grades were a bit, say, lacklustre...

But that's behind me now, and because I'm on limited time and the laziest person I know, I'm going to post my personal schedule for all to marvel at.

4/28- Chamber Singers; Driver's Ed
4/29- State Choral Festival; Les Mis Practice
4/30- Les Mis Practice
5/1- SATs; Les Mis Practice
5/2- Babysitting
5/3- Les Mis Practice
5/4- Les Mis Practice
5/5- Middle School Show; Dress Rehearsal
5/6- Opening Night
5/7- Show
5/8- Closing Night

Marvel at will, my lovelies! -muah- All the best!
 
some strange feelings
04.12.04 (9:10 pm)   [edit]


I've been really hormonal lately, but that's typical for people my age.

But recently I've also felt, well, unfulfilled.

It's really hard to explain, but although my mind says that I should be concentrating on doing well and getting out of here, my heart says otherwise. At times, my body aches for, well, I really don't know. But deep inside I feel this longing for something, and I really can't explain it.

I don't know if it's physical, emotional or a a mixture of both, but I feel like a puzzle missing a piece. I'll never be complete until I find out what's missing, and I'm no good to anyone in such a condition.

I pray to God every single night that He will give me the strength and guidance to find my place, but I'm not getting anything from it. Sometimes I even feel like praying is pointless. And that really bothers me. I know that some of His greatest gifts are unanswered prayers, but I need to know.

I promised myself and God that I would never contemplate my life in a negative fashion, and although I try with all that is humanly possible, I can feel this part of me that's still connected to the depression I was submitting to at this time last year. I've confessed my sins and been forgiven for thinking about taking my own life, but I feel so isolated and useless.

It rips my heart out to think that my own children will have to grow up in this world that seems to have forgotten how to love. Life is not easy, but no one should have to be subjected to this. No one deserves this kind of pain.

I wish that I couldn't feel at all.

I keep asking God what I'm for,
And he tells me "Gee, I'm not sure..."
 
I was Axed, I tell you!
04.12.04 (8:40 pm)   [edit]

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I had a very Les Mis day today. Yes siree.

Apparently I had way too much chocolate yesterday, because I could not fall asleep for the life of me! I was online until about [i]1 o' clock[/i], thanks to [b]Brett[/b] and the [b]SD crew[/b]. Brett and I were just exchanging pleasantries, but the folks from SD, myself included, were orgying in our own private little chatroom. It was hot. We would've had a phone orgy, but my 'rents don't even know the SD peoples exist, and there's no way they'd let me talk to them on the phone at one in the morning. Yet another reason to add to the why I need a cell phone list.

I finally did go to bed, but I laid awake until about 3:30. There was nothing good on TV after Providence, so I read a little bit of Les Mis and finally turned my light off. I think I fell asleep shortly after 3:45, but I woke up about four times between then and when my alarm went off at 7:30. I did not get a good night's sleep at all.

I finally decided to get up and get dressed, and then Mom and I left for school. By the time I got there, which was about 9:45, everyone was working. So I just kinda jumped right in a helped! It was a rather good morning. We collected props, painted, I ended up babysitting Hannah for a little while (not voluntarily, I swear!), and we just had some great cast bonding time.

Everyone chipped in (or at least they should've) for several pizzas for lunch, so we all gathered in the cafeteria and bonded some more! Drew sang of the wonders of Astrolopythicus the ovivorus dinosaur, and the rest of us just started belting out random Veggie Tales songs and such. Then, horror of horrors, Porter Axed me! It actually burned! How can anyone put something that burns on their skin? Skin is sensitive, you know! He thought he was a cunning fox, but Kim and I got him back with glittery lotion. He sparkled like morning dew, and it was wondrous. But I still smell like a man. -sigh- He used so much on me, I think it may have embedded itself in my pores.

We ran the whole show following that, and it was really something to watch. We've come so far with this production, I can scarcely believe it myself! Gibbons amazes me every time I watch him, because I'm slowly seeing him becoming Jean Valjean and breaking away from Jonathan Gibbons. I've even started having Madame moments recently, and I actually start thinking like her. It's really crazy. I'm so excited about this show. The students made me so sad with their sad faces when Gavroche died. -sigh- That's the saddest death in the entire show.

I hate it when something's too good to be true. This Easter weekend was so awesome, but I knew it couldn't last. Sort of like Drama class, you know? It's so much fun and you make tons of friends, and then it's over like that. Just when you wish it could stay that way forever, everything has to go and change on you. -sigh- But you can't always win, can you?

Back to school tomorrow, and I am so not ready to go back to the rat races. But if it's any consolation, we have less than 2 months until we're big, bad seniors. I can feel a great school year coming on. I know it.

So dark, so dark and deep
The secrets that you keep.
 
for lack of anything better to do
04.10.04 (2:29 pm)   [edit]


-giggles- Stole it from the Kimber!

[b]1) spell your name using band names:[/b] [u]A[/u]BBA [u]L[/u]inkin Park [u]Y[/u]ellowcard [u]S[/u]imple Plan [u]S[/u]witchfoot [u]A[/u]erosmith
[b]2) have you ever had a song written about you? [/b]no
[b]3) what song makes you cry?[/b] none
[b]4) what song makes you happy?[/b] any showtune lol
[b]5) what do you listen to before bed?[/b] I watch TV. I have a problem with turning off appliances.

[i]a p p e a r a n c e[/i]
height: 5'2"
hair color: dirty blonde
[b]skin color:[/b] fair
[b]eye color:[/b] right, brown; left, green
[b]piercings:[/b] my ears, twice
[b]tattoos:[/b] a temporary one on my ankle

[i]r i g h t n o w[/i]
[b]what color pants are you wearing?: [/b]um, blue jeans?
[b]what song are you listening to?:[/b] "Tusk" by Fleetwood Mac
[b]what taste is in your mouth?: [/b]Tic Tac
[b]what's the weather like?: [/b]rather nice and breezy
[b]how are you?[/b] rather chipper, I must say

[i]d o y o u[/i]
[b]get motion sickness?: [/b]only when reading in a moving vehicle
[b]have a bad habit?:[/b] where would you like me to start?
[b]get along with your parents?: [/b]for the most part
[b]like to drive?: [/b]hopefully

[i]f a v o r i t e s[/i]
[b]tv show:[/b] Simpsons and/or Idol
[b]conditioner:[/b] Herbal Essences
[b]book:[/b] [u]The Lovely Bones[/u]
[b]non alcoholic drink:[/b] Crystal Light or Hershey's Milkshakes
[b]alcoholic drink:[/b] I don't drink, thanks.
[b]thing to do on the weekend:[/b] get my sleep
[b]band or group or singer or rapper:[/b] Linkin Park

[i]h a v e y o u[/i]
[b]broken the law:[/b] not yet
[b]ran away from home:[/b] for a little while
[b]snuck out of the house:[/b] no
[b]ever gone skinny dipping:[/b] nope
[b]made a prank phone call:[/b] not that I can recall
[b]ever tipped over a porta potty:[/b] no
[b]used your parents' credit card before:[/b] yes, but with permission
[b]skipped school before:[/b] only when notebooks were due
[b]fell asleep in the shower/bath: [/b]yes
[b]been in a school play:[/b] TONS!
[b]let a friend cry on your shoulder:[/b] yes

[i]l o v e[/i]
[b]boyfriend:[/b] none
[b]girlfriend:[/b] none
[b]sexuality:[/b] hetero!
[b]children:[/b] none
[b]current crush:[/b] not really sure, actually
[b]been in love:[/b] not yet
[b]had a hard time getting over someone:[/b] yes
[b]been hurt:[/b] yes
[b]your greatest regret:[/b] nothing yet
[b]gone out with someone you only knew for three days:[/b] um, no, that's dumb

[i]r a n d o m[/i]
[b]do you have a job:[/b] no, but I need one!
[b]your cd player has in it right now:[/b] A Chorus Line
[b]if you were a crayon what color would you be?: [/b]macaroni and cheese
[b]what makes you happy: [/b]seeing other people happy
[b]who makes you happiest: [/b]any of my friends
[b]what's the next cd you're gonna get?: [/b]LSOH, 'cause I saw Mom buy it @ Boscov's
[b]who do you consider good friends?:[/b] Kim, Tina, Porter, Daren, Diana, Marina, Anna, Dana, Jess

[i]w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t[/i]
[b]time you cried:[/b] last week when I saw The Passion
[b]you got a real letter?: [/b]beats me
[b]you got e-mail:[/b] the other day from Ms. Cheryl
[b]thing you purchased:[/b] a part of Kimmy's present!
[b]tv program you watched:[/b] Monster Trucks on ESPN
[b]movie you saw in the theater:[/b] The Passion of the Christ
 
GAH... so very bored
04.09.04 (10:05 pm)   [edit]


stolen from Alex

1: [b]Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says[/b]: arm'let n. ornamental band worn on the upper arm

2: [b]Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?[/b]: The computer cabinet.

3: [b]What is the last thing you watched on TV?[/b]: Cirque du Soleil: Quidam on BRAVO

4: [b]WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is[/b]: 12:35 AM

5: [b]Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?[/b]:
12:41 AM

6: [b]With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?[/b]: My mom messing around with the dishes in the sink

7: [b]When did you last step outside? what were you doing?[/b]: Around 4:15 today, heading out for church (Passion Play performance tonight)

8:[b] Before you came to this website, what did you look at?[/b]: My buddy list

9: [b]What are you wearing?[/b]: Blue soccer shorts & a white shirt underneath my Dusk to Dawn show shirt and gray sweatpants (not to mention my rather Christmasy undergarments... :wink:)

10: [b]Did you dream last night?[/b] Guess so. I don't really remember.

11: [b]When did you last laugh?[/b] Tonight, at Passion.

12:[b] What is on the walls of the room you are in?[/b]: A painting of fruit, basket hangers, baskets, some scuff marks

13: [b]Seen anything weird lately?[/b]: A mental image of Brett riding a bike al desnudo... -shudders-

14: [b]What do you think of this quiz?[/b]: Que interesante...

15: [b]What is the last film you saw?[/b]: The Passion of the Christ, for the second time

16: [b]If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?[/b]: A college education, then an apartment in NYC

17: [b]Tell me something about you that I don't know[/b]: Erm, I have two different colored eyes?

18: [b]If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?[/b]: Get everyone to see the good in each other. I 'm sick of all this hate.

19: [b]Do you like to dance?[/b]: Only when no one's watching...

20: [b]George Bush: is he a power-crazy nutcase or some one who is finally doing something that has needed to be done for years?[/b]: I. Hate. Politics. Therefore, no comment.

21:[b] Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?[/b]: Cecily or Brigid.

22: [b]Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?[/b]: Aidan.

23: [b]Would you ever consider living abroad?[/b]: Certainly. Anything to get out of this country.

24: [b]Will you pass on this survey?[/b]: Not voluntarily. I guarantee it.
 
Lady Luck Myers
04.08.04 (3:47 pm)   [edit]


How many entries have I written on the Talent Show?

Okay, the winners were as follows:

-[b]Jamie Lippy[/b]- She was so good! She deserved to win!
-[b]D & Js[/b]- I liked them as well, although I thought Jenna's dance was cute, too.
-[b]Steve Freidman[/b]- Nuh-uh. Don't think so. First, he kinda bored me. Second, no boobs, singing, or dancing. -growls-
-[b]John Fagely[/b]- He's a teddy bear, so he automatically wins!

I think Brett and Jon should've won for their category. That's just my two cents, but I think the judges were foolish to not vote for them. Anyhoo, we had a grand old time yelling things along the lines of We love you, Brett and Jon! and Brett's a babe! whe everyone came up onstage at the end. Kim and I went around hugging everyone, and then she had to go.

I called Mom and then went and schmoozed in the hallway, and I actually managed to catch Brett before he left, seeing as he virtually got mobbed and Kim and I couldn't get anywhere near him. He said he could hear me yelling over everyone else. I don't do it on purpose, I swear! Besides, they don't call me Mouth for nothing, you know!

All in all, I had a rocking night! I don't usually go to school functions like Talent Show and such, but I'm awfully glad that I did!
 
Baby, I believe in you!
04.08.04 (11:19 am)   [edit]


Okay, back to the Talent Show.

I arrived rather close to 7:00, and I was afraid that I'd have to sit by myself. Amazingly, there was a seat next to Amy and behind Kim and Marina that was open, so I practically crawled over the people on the end to get to it. :P

Krysta was the first act, and she sang I Dreamed a Dream. She did so well! Nothing like a little publicity, hehe!

I loved Dotson's drum solo, mostly because I love Rush. But more specifically, my brother thinks he can play set. He can't. 'Twas nice to hear someone who actually plays different rhythms for a change.

Matt made me laugh with his song. I couldn't understand a single word he said. But what's even funnier is that he's failing his classes, and yet his parents let him do things like the Talent Show and drive and such. Well, at least he'll be able to make a meager salary as a starving artist. Because there's a snowball's chance in hell that he's going to college.

Caitlin Hilbert started off the seemingly never-ending lineup of Evanescence songs with Bring Me To Life. She kept doing this weird circle movement-type thing with her mic that was really distracting.

Hehe. I love Jamie Lippy. I love Son of a Preacher Man. Enough said.

The next act was the one we'd been anticipating... Brett and Jon! Oh my, this was the highlight of my night. Brett's chesticles were mighty perky, and when I looked at Jon, all I could see was Jean Valjean. And John Stevens. Although Jon Gibbons is in a league of his own! Hey guys, I think ol' Blue Eyes would've been proud. Or mortified. I've yet to decide. Hehe. It rocked . Hard.

It was definitely Cousin Night in Kimmy's family! Jenn was so good! The stupid sound crew didn't have the piano plugged into the speaker system, so we couldn't hear her accompaniment, but she was fab!

Jenna did the cutest little dance to Singing in the Rain with a trash can lid on her foot! It reminded me of when I was in dance... We were just starting to get into fun stuff like that when I left. -sigh- I was a little grossed out by the dust that was coming up off the stage, though. Silly set construction didn't clean up after themselves!

Kim and I are dancing fools! There was some music playing at intermission, so Kim and I danced the night away! Mr. Day was sitting a few seats away from us, and I think we amused him. Porter called us losers, but the only losers were the ones who weren't dancing! You can't deny the groove, right Kim? We were so feeling it!

Steve Freidman did a magic act, but I think he could've been more professional with it. It was okay, but I was having too much fun laughing at Weikers, his lovely assistant!

Ashley and Tim did My Immortal, and I thought they were fab! Of all the Evanescence songs last night, I think this was one of the best!

D & Js Dynamite Dance Co. did this awesome dance to Enter Sandman, and although the audience's reactions were mixed, I loved it! It really made my heart ache, though, because I'm so sorry that I quit dance for sports. I'm seriously thinking about starting again either next year or in college. But D & Js were rocking!

Chris Rudy did some more positive publicity for Les Mis with the Empty Chairs at Empty Tables (or the Cafe Song, as the SE calls it, but I like to call it by its real name). He's so good, and that song always makes me feel sad and emotional. -sigh- He rocked my socks!

Alexia did Rescue Me, and I was surprised by how good her performance was. In the past, she's done some really weird numbers with a lot of Mariah Carey-esque screaming and such, and this act was really wholesome and good! Yay Alexia!

I just want to say that Katie Tracey should Enjoy Being a Girl, because she is one of the prettiest little things that I've ever met in my life! And what a voice!

Danie did Hello, but I don't think it was a very good song choice. She's an alto, and has a very nice alto voice for that matter, but this was not a good song for her.

Sharnell played and sang a song she wrote, but it really didn't strike my fancy. I don't know what it was, it just didn't really appeal to me. -shrugs- But she has a very nice voice and is quite talented.

John Fagley is going to be the next country music star, I can feel it! He played a song that he wrote, and it was so sweet! He's like a big ol' teddy bear, like Peppy Steve! I just wanted to hug and cuddle him!

Ms. Delo sang Bring Me To Life and A Moment Like This during the voting, and I must say that I love her voice. I wish I would've been an Idol fan when she was on, because I would've liked to see her on the show.

I was going to post the winners in this blog, but it's waay too long as it is. I have to go to the mall with Mom, so I'll write them in here when I get back.
Much love. -muah-
 
-sigh of relief-
04.08.04 (9:46 am)   [edit]


OMG, it felt so great to not have to get up at 6 o'clock this morning and go to school! I finally did get up around 11:30 because I smelled the divine smell of my dad's breakfast burritos and just had to get some before it was gone.

I probably would've gotten up earlier this morning, except I chatted the night away with Kim, Brett, and QP. By the time I finally bid my farewells and settled down for the night, it was rather close to 12:50. Needless to say, I got a full night's sleep. -sigh- 'Tis nice to feel refreshed and ready to take on the world.

Hmm, Mom just told me that we're going out to do some family-related stuff. I was going to blog about the Talent Show, but I'll have to finish it when I get back! Gotta go jump in the shower! -muah-
 
Our school is burning down...
04.05.04 (8:55 pm)   [edit]

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I had an okay day today. I got my midterm grade for Chem, which I wasn't too happy about, and I've actually forgotten it. Not that I really care, but still. It wasn't a very good way to start my day.

Stupid clarinet was in the shop over the weekend, and they said it would be done Sunday evening. They lied. So I spent 2nd mod today working on my section leader application and reorganizing music for Mr. P. So much for the good ol' Spagnoletta and our friend Giles Farnaby. We passed that sucker in. I hope I get to be the section leader. Really. I don't want another inept leader like Schaefer bringing us down this season, and I think it's about damn time that P listened to something I have to say. But that's just my humble opinion. Not like anyone listens to it anyway.

Blargh, I despise Brit Lit. It just grows as the days go by, and thank god that it's almost over. Once I am free of Howells, well I'll... I don't know what I'll do! I'll celebrate, that's for sure! We did some dumb exercise with the Pardoner's Tale, and I got stuck in a group with Andy Young, Josh Weikers, and Brendan Kuhn. Josh is pretty smart, but Brendan and Andy don't give jocks a very good name, if you know what I mean. I did pretty much all of the creative work, and they read. Gee, what a difficult task! I hope they didn't strain anything in the process. -rolls eyes- You'd think that I'm used to it by now. Ha.

If the day didn't start off well, at least it ended in a much better fashion. I found out that I got a 94% on my Anatomy midterm, which is certainly an improvement from my Chem one. We just did a lot of boring bookwork and such, but I expect that. We're supposed to be doing a lab tomorrow on reflexes, so that should be interesting. Or at the very least stimulating.

Les Mis practice today, and I knew ahead of time that it was going to be interesting, seeing as it was going to be our first runthrough of Act 1, but we never actually got that far. It was going extremely well, or at least much better than I expected, and then right in the middle of Castle on a Cloud, during my little solo-thinger, the fire bells started going off. Yes, you read it correctly. The fire bells. We had to evacuate the school and go stand outside in the cold wind, and some of us were only in the shirts we wore to school. It was awful. So much for practice, huh? Kim, Brett and myself started a mini-Exodus around to the patio to wait for our parents because they weren't letting us back into school. If anything, I didn't have any homework from today's classes. But I really wish that it wouldn't have ruined practice today, because there's no doubt in my mind that most of the cast could've benefitted from it.

Unfortunately, the school is still standing, and we will most likely have school tomorrow. Darn. We could've really used a catastrophe right about now.

We are the Knights who say... "Ni"!
 
blargh
04.01.04 (2:43 pm)   [edit]

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Don't let the bastards grind you down.


It's so nice to be able to sit back and feel confident and relaxed, isn't it? To know exactly what direction your life is going in, and to be completely certain about your future, you know?

I thought I knew what that felt like, but now I'm just not sure about anything anymore.

To be honest, I think everyone has one or two major "hopeless moments" in his/her life, but I honestly just want to throw my arms into the air and scream for it all to go away. I feel so out of it and disconnected, I don't really know what to do. At all.

I thought that I knew what I was doing, but it doesn't feel right. I have no idea why I should feel this way! I couldn't ask for anything more right now. I have a lead in the musical, a 4.0 GPA, awesome friends; so why do I feel so empty? I get up and go to school, the same thing every single day, but I don't feel anything.

Maybe this is one of those hormonal things. God, I hope so. I don't know if I can take it for much longer. With any luck, things will seem a lot clearer after this year's over. After all, I am going to be a senior next year, and at least the end is in sight... Or is it the beginning? The word commence does mean to begin, so maybe there's hope yet.

I'm ready for something new. Anything. Please?
 
Pleasure Me, Pleasure Me!
03.31.04 (3:39 pm)   [edit]

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Yay for Hump Day! It's about time for a change. Speaking of which, I changed my colors. I'm all blue now! What do you think?

I can't believe that it's midterm time already! Just think guys, only 9 more weeks until we're officially seniors! Hmm. Creepy, yet exciting. -shivers-

Chem can be so boring sometimes. Of course, it would be a lot easier to tolerate if Schaefer would be quiet every once and a while! Just about every other time she says something, those of us that sit near her can only think, WTF?! Everything she has to say is either rude, slanderous, or just plain stupid. And she's really not making friends by teasing others about their physical and/or mental flaws. She just seems to get more and more annoying as the days go by. Lord help us if she gets drum major. -groan- Oh yeah, we have our midterm in Chem tomorrow. Hopefully the stuff that I know I can do will cancel out the stuff I'm horrible at. Hopefully.

Boring ol' History. blah. We did some dumb activity with placards and such. Boring as usual. I was having a major ADD moment during this entire mod, but I guess the fact that I forgot to take my meds this morning probably contributed to that.

I HATE QUOTES AND NOTES! Yes, it's true, I do! I absolutely despise taking notes on something I absolutely hate. Absolutely! Howells made us work on our plans for the dumb essays. Congrats, Howells. You've officially made me hate British literature. Urgh. I'll never look at Shakespeare the same again.

We were so bad during this mod! We being Marina, Anna, Diana, and myself, of course. (Hey! All of our names end in a! That's weird!) We were supposed to be filling out our packets and finishing our labs, but we were too busy flipping through the textbook and finding things to laugh at. For example, we found an article on how cocaine affects the pleasure centers of the brain, and it was entitled Pleasure Me, Pleasure Me! Hence, the blog title. Marina thought it should've been called Pleasure, Please! I agree.

Chamber Singers and Treble Choir was dumb. Tisha Eaton sings too loud and Kat Doyle smells. Woohoo.

I have so much work to catch up on, I feel as though I may spontaneously combust from stress! I have to finish my essay plan, do the notecard for Chem, fill out some worksheets for Anatomy... When do I get a break?! [insert Fate's evil laughter here] Oh Fate! Why do you taunt me so? Alas, she is a cruel mistress. The cruelest of them all.
 
NO! Not the CHILDREN!
03.29.04 (6:17 am)   [edit]


Kim and I have been officially scarred for life, and I guarantee you that we will never be the same. Oh my, was it frightening.

-hides somewhere far, far away-

Kimmy, I will resist! I will!

[b]DiscoDonkey 813:[/b] HES TRYING TO LURE YOU!
[b]DiscoDonkey 813:[/b] WITH HIS NUDITY@!
[b]DiscoDonkey 813:[/b] RESIST THE NUDITY, ALYSSA!
[b]DiscoDonkey 813:[/b] THINK ABOUT WHO IT IS!

-pukes- BLECH!
 
defying gravity
03.24.04 (4:50 pm)   [edit]


My daily horoscope really got me thinking today.

A person you greatly admire will figure prominently in your decision to withdraw from any social activity that is not absolutely necessary. Learning from those who have gone before you is a great head start.


I wonder what the activity could be? And the person? Oh, these things are sometimes so accurate, it frightens me. Maybe this will be one of those times that it's wrong... I hope.

I'll try to blog about my day later, but we're going to Wal Mart so I can get fabric for my costume. Maybe later. TTFN.
 
dancing through life
03.22.04 (5:14 pm)   [edit]

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I was so tired last night. I don't know why, considering that I really didn't do anything strenuous or that required energy. Meh. Whatever.

We got out Unit II tests back in Chem. I got a 72, and Tina and I were test grade twins! I'm rather pleased that I passed, although I think I could've done better. But get this: the highest grade in our class was a 96 and the lowest was a 29. What happened there?

I was seriously hoping that we wouldn't have to play in band today. But no, certain people insisted on talking, and we had to get our instruments out for the last half hour. Well, blah to that!

We fooled around around with the dumb balladry packet in Brit Lit, and then a group performed their epic. My group doesn't go until Thursday. At least I know all is right in the world when Brit Lit is boring as usual.

At lunch, Kimmy told me about Porter's little mishap in Brit Lit, so I stuck a bandaid on his booboo. It looked positively charming, I tell you. Daren and I went off in a tangent about marching band, and I think we frightened the other kids at the table. Oh, that band. I don't know what I'm going to do about it anymore. Honestly.

Presentations in Anatomy. My group had facial muscles and mastication, so as we described them I made the corresponding faces. What can you do with your orbicularis oris? Haha. Good times. I have to finish the stupid Chapter 10 packet for homework. Meh. We got back our muscle cartoons and Hip wanted to keep mine, so that definitely put me in a rather chipper mood.

Kimmy told me that I was amazing today. Well, if I said I was overjoyed, that would be an understatement! I didn't feel too amazing when I hurt Hayley though. But I said I was sorry and gave her a hug, so I think we're cool again. I take the blame for that accident, even though she is supposed to throw herself back when I push her... Ah well. I have to take it like a responsible adult, I suppose.

Hannah was starting to get on my nerves today, and Brett kept forgetting his lines. He gets rather flustered when he messes up, so I have to try very hard not to laugh while in character. But how can I when he's messing up and Jon keeps looking at me funny when I'm singing to him and trying to be vulture-like? Jon just gets this weird look on his face like he wants to laugh, but it just makes him look confuzzled. And he says my eyes bug out when I sing! Do you think they do that?!

Mom and Brendan are at Chris' lacrosse game, so I'm just chilling here at home. I don't do sporting events in cold weather, thank you very much. Especially school sporting events. Blech.

I think I'm going to go watch Fear Factor for a little while. Or maybe not. My stomach has felt weird all day long...

G'night, all. Paix.
 
why think so hard?
03.21.04 (8:58 pm)   [edit]

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Okay y'all, here's the Weekend Edition.

Mmmkay. Saturday was kind of boring, considering all I really did was sit around on the computer all day. I wonder why I didn't blog then? Hmm? *ponders* Anyhoo, I managed to tear myself away from the monitor and apply for a job at Greenmount Station. I really need this job because I need money (go figure), so I hope that I get it. *sings* God I hope I get it, I hope I get it...

I spent the night over the Schmidt's because I was babysitting and Ms. Nicole and Mr. Eric went out and got drunk with their poker pals. But they told me to come prepared to spend the night, so it must've been planned... Yeah. Anyway, I finally got home and went to church with the family, which was a nightmare. I had a horrible time paying attention to what was going on today. Since I don't take my meds on the weekend, I have to work to keep my ADD under control. It's usually very easy, but for some reason, today was a living hell trying to stay focused. *sigh* All in a day's work, I suppose.

I had Passion practice from 2:30 to 4:30 because the Franciscans were doing a retreat tonight (which I heard was quite good), and we need to use the church. I hope none of our soldiers drop the cross on Good Friday, although it wouldn't surprise me if they did. They don't bother me, but my god, Rachel Lyons does! I was being the responsible adult [rolling of eyes] and keeping the ninos in the sacristy quiet, and she kept singing Master of the House with this absolutely dreadful accent. I'll bet you anything that Alain and Claude-Michel (the creators) were in severe pain at that point in time, and Victor Hugo was probably rolling over in his grave. And then she was talking about how she wishes she could be in the show. Well forget it! You can't act or sing, and you drive everyone out of their freaking minds! Just please please please leave me alone for once! GAH! Lord, give me strength...

As bright note to conclude this by, I have Les Mis tomorrow! I can't wait to do Little Cosette [insert evil laughter here] and "hang" with Hayley and Hannah. I swear, Hannah practically god-worships Madame. What a precocious child...

Night all. Suenos dulces.
 
come on ladies, what you waiting for?
03.19.04 (7:30 pm)   [edit]

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Yay Terps! NCAA all the way, baby!

T. G. I. F. And that's all I have to say.

I started off my morning with one of two tests today, the first of which being in Chem. For what it's worth, it was much shorter than the Unit I Assessment, but I think I completely bombed the molecular orbital diagram. Okay, let's get this straight: I'm a Theatre major and I will most likely end up working in a high school full of ungrateful kids for much less than I deserve. When am I ever going to use this?! I like this class for the most part, but sometimes it really rubs me the wrong way.

I had another test today, this time in History. This test wasn't the easiest that I've ever taken, but it was by far the easiest one today. At least I know about China and Japanese history... But when am I ever going to use that? GAH!

Brit Lit was so boring today. We did some stupid packet on balladry and then we sang towards the end of the mod. Yay. I did get to bring my piano into school today so that Howells could use it during class. That certainly made for an interesting procession coming into school. All of the kids in the halls were asking if they could touch it, and a couple of the administrators asked a few questions. What's the matter? Have none of you seen a short kid toting a huge keyboard before? Sheesh!

More busy work in Anatomy. Since I missed class yesterday, I thought there would be a lot of work to catch up on. I was wrong. Hip called off the muscle practical, much to the relief of the idiots in my class. Did you know that the lowest grade in our class is an F? Since when do students taking a level 4 class accept an F for their grade? I know I don't! I think our class is easily divided into halves: the smart kids that are focused on their futures, and the ignoramuses. There's really no middle ground. It's sort of like a polar molecule, a positive end and a negative end, one clearly definable from the other. Oh god. I just related something to Chem, didn't I? GAH!

As I remarked to Kim earlier, Les Mis is my drug. I am so horribly addicted it's not even funny. I need every hour of practice to survive, so please, no interventions! We were out of places to practice today because Battle of the Bands was in the auditorium and my brother's lacrosse team had study hall in the cafeteria. We finally trooped over to the upper gym and did Innkeeper, Wedding, and Docks, in that order. Brett and I got a really big round of applause today for the Wedding, and it was really exhilarating! I've never had a part of quite this importance before, and it's really exciting when you know that the audience and the other people in the scene are hanging on your every word! It actually feels really good to make people laugh... See? I'm addicted! *grins* Oh Les Mis... How I love thee!

Okay, it's time for Alyssa to go eat some ice cream and watch School of Rock. Have a nice weekend all, especially Drama Club on their trip tO NYC! Wish I could be there!

Quote of the Day
Did you slip in that? Oh, I'm sorry, it was my eyes.

Good times talking about bad things... Shiver me timbers!
 
you're such a vomer
03.11.04 (8:44 pm)   [edit]

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Today went by surprisingly fast, considering how long this week has been. Thank god tomorrow's Friday.

I was so afraid that Mr. Lynam would have a ton of makeup work for the people that weren't in class on Wednesday, but he was being unusually generous and compassionate. It was rather frightening. I finished this really easy reactions worksheet in class, but now I have to watch this assinine video over the weekend. Joy.

Blech. History was boring today. I'm not even going to write about it and bore you with the details.

You know what, Brit Lit was just flat out dumb today. Howells gave me a freaking see me on my reader response, just so she could tell me what I did wrong and how I could make it better. Well, excuse me! Begging your pardon, Howells, but I'm not you, nor do I want to be, so don't you dare tell me how I can make my writing meet your stupid standards! GAH! Oh, and to top it all off, she made us eat C lunch, so I didn't get to see Kim, Porter, Marina, Kirby, Daren or anyone that I normally do. I missed my B lunch pals.

As Kim has already mentioned, Lord Voldemort was our sub in Anatomy today. The fact that his name is Tom M. Riddle just seriously creeps me out. *shivers* We started on this humongo packet on muscles, and then Marina, Diana and myself accidentally came across the genital warts photograph... Yeah. Pleasant. I was a little angry that I couldn't make up my lab today because Hip was out, but I did get to ride the cheese home today, and that's always an enjoyable experience.

I finally got home, and that's when I remembered that someone moved my keys last night, so I didn't know where they were and didn't put them in my purse this morning. So, because I haven't learned how to break into this house yet (I was an expert at the old house), I had to stash my stuff in my car and walk to my grandparents' house so I could get Granddad to come let me in. Yeah, that was definitely my idea of fun, trudging through my entire neighborhood just so I could get inside my home. Woo hoo.

Thank god tomorrow is Friday. I have dance practice and the weekend to look forward to, not to mention church and Passion practice! I love being in the Passion! Although I didn't get to be Pilate this year (long story. I'll tell you later.), I do get to be Mary, and that's always a cool part. I've played just about every role in the play (female, that is), and after 6 years of being in it, I can finally say it from memory. Oh god, I need a hobby. Or a job. Preferably the latter. G'night all.
 
moi?
03.10.04 (7:52 pm)   [edit]

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Kim had the link to a site that analyzes your name, so I thought I'd do it too. All I have to say is whoa.

Your name of Alyssa creates a desire for association with people and new experiences, many of which have been rather bitter. This name has given you a gregarious personality and a quick-thinking, creative, and versatile nature, but one that is very emotional. You desire change and travel and would enjoy opportunities that allowed you to be creative and to act independently, rather than to conform to system and routine. However, this name does not allow you to complete your undertakings, as farther fields always look greener.

I'm a little scared now. How do they know so much about me?!
 
famous??
03.09.04 (8:51 pm)   [edit]

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I doubt that any of you have seen the movie Camp, which was in theatres last summer, but I think that I should share this interesting piece of information with you all.

I just found out from my mother a few days ago that my distant cousin, Zena, was in a movie on the big screen. Now, you see, this was major news to me because I haven't seen her since I was about 11 and we were in a few plays together. Turns out that Mom saw her picture on the back of the DVD case in Blockbuster and recognized her, and it also turns out that some of my extended family members have movie posters of Zena in their houses. And I'm just finding out about this?! So I go on the website, and sure enough, there she is, right on the front page. I watched some clips of the film and there is no doubt about it that Joanna Chilcoat is my distant cousin. That's the other interesting thing. As far as Hollywood is concerned, her name is Joanna, not Zena. I think Zena is her given name, and Joanna must be a stage name of sorts. I guess Zena was too unique or something. Who knows? It was all very surreal for me, especially since I was onstage with her on more than one occasion.

So there you have it, my connection with the stars. And to think I never even knew until this week... Heck, I thought she went away to college! I guess they forgot to tell us or something. So easy to forget, right?
 
please, don't smell the anatomy
03.09.04 (6:57 pm)   [edit]

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Sometimes it is pleasant to act like a madman.


Ugh, I am so pissed that I'm writing this entry right now. I spent a whole half hour last night writing this huge entry about the weekend, and tBLOG has to go and crash on me! Stupid SOB.

Since the entry I lost last night was priceless, I'm just not going to be able to recreate it. I suppose y'all will have to guess about what I did this weekend...

Chem II was actually kinda fun today. Of course, we haven't recieved the Unit II Assignment yet, so I'd better enjoy it while it lasts. I think I did pretty well on the homework, except for the whole carbon sp3 thing, but when am I going to use it anyway? Lynam was really off task today, which totally rocked. We got hardly anything done, and I think I could go for that any day of the week.

Nothing remarkable happened in History today. I did pretty good on the pop quiz, and I definitely had to wake Candice up more times than I should have. Sometimes I'm just way too nice. Maybe I'll grow out of it.

We were supposed to finish our epics in Brit Lit today, but we never got quite that far. It was more like a slack off as much as possible day than a getting work done day. Ms. Howells shared some interesting factoids about Ancient Rome and vometoriums, you know the like.

Diana and I finished skinning Homer today. It wasn't as easy as I thought it would be, but I wasn't grossed out by it at all. He looked like one of those hairless Egyptian cats by the time we were done with him. The only downside to the whole dissection thing is the smell. The scent of the preserving fluid gets in your clothes, hair, books, everything, and so you smell like you live in a morgue for the rest of the day. I guess it is a plus to have it at the end of the day...

I'm so proud of myself today. I actually got the time to do some laundry after school! I've been needing to do it since last week, so it was nice to be able to wash my clothes in peace. But I just can't get used to the whole coming home after school thing. I need my Les Mis, and I need it now. I finished the waistband in my Innkeeper skirt, so now I can wear it to dance practice on Friday! I tell you, volunteering to make my costume was probably the best thing I ever did. That way, it fits perfectly, and I get to keep it! Hehe. I think I know what I'm going to be for Halloween...
 
keep your wits about you
03.02.04 (2:54 pm)   [edit]

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Just in the case that it hasn't been released to the public, Mr. Scanlan thinks that it would be a good idea to do Nunsense as our senior musical. In my humble (yet highly valuable) opinion, I think his idea sucks. Therefore, I have compiled a short, but soon to be much longer, list of shows that I think would better suit our school's needs and not completely blow. Here goes.

Little Shop of Horrors
Grease
The Adventures of Tom Sawyer
Once Upon A Mattress
Damn Yankees
Emperor's New Clothes
Godspell
Into The Woods
Pirates of Penzance (Yay pirates!)
Schoolhouse Rock Live!
1776
Seven Brides for Seven Brothers
Sweeney Todd
Tommy
West Side Story

I swear, if we do Nunsense, I'll scream. I. HATE. THAT. PLAY. GAH! Okay, I think I'm done. It's just that it makes me really angry when I think of another Bye Bye Birdie as our last musical in high school. Grr. That man infuriates me. sniffle. I want Mr. Dunski back. (He did the directing thing with Ms. Gore before Scanlan showed up. I worked with him @ TOTH, and you guys would've loved him.) At least he could direct as well as he taught English.
 
days left of school. Only here.